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I STILL THINK THAT VALVE SHOULD MAKE A PORTAL GAME WHERE YOU PLAY AS THE RATMAN

Portal you give me so many feels just stop it.

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brogod:

Personal Beliefs: you’re doing it right.

this is so awesome

so much yes

Omg

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My answer:

Bleh. Yeah, I know. I’m working on it… My mother’s family is full of people with mental instability, so I’ve got that handed down to me. It’s supposed to be okay in a healthy family environment, but mine’s been a little sub-par, lately. Not to mention my hormone medicine that makes me ridiculously emotional, which causes me to have terrible mood swings like that. Plus, all of that was stuff I needed to get off my chest, so… I typically don’t have that mindset, it’s not like I feel so badly every day. Just when something sets me off, like a bad day and my dad leaving for a while.

That’s not to ignore your advice though. c: I’ve considered checking out a therapist before, and I might look more into it as that sort of behavior has been getting worse with me. I mean I know you said that a therapist won’t help, but it might. I’ve also chosen my friends so that I’m surrounded by supportive people who love me for me, and they really help, too. I think I’ll be better with some time, especially time spent with the person who helps me most.

Tim Burton should just make a movie called ‘Johnny Depp’.

plot twist: Johnny Depp is played by Helena Bonham Carter

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laurakandtheinfinitesadness:

spintowin:

scienceandrollerskates:

Today, I made some calming manatees, but most of them are the wrong size to go on the site.

Oh well. Would you like them?

Oh my god this is BEAUTIFUL

thank you i needed this

oh gosh

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Anon, I thank you heartily for what you have said to me. My swiftly given answer was not enough, so I feel the need to elaborate.

Thank you, but you don’t seem to understand how perfect I’m really not.

Your message comes at a tough time for me, and it truly brightened my day. Your message came at a time right when my father walked out the door because of me, literally minutes afterward. He left for an indefinite period because of me. This followed a day of being mocked for accepting evolution, ridiculed for my atheism, judged for the ones I’ve chosen to love, and insulted for my acceptance of homosexuality in society. This day followed months of intolerance from my family, those closest to me. However close to me they are, they are so willing to cast me out. My father talked of beating me so I would have an excuse to call social services, so I could be taken away and I wouldn’t waste anymore of his time or money. “Why would I want a daughter who hates God?” was his justification. When he noticed my cuts, he put me on display to tell my mother what I had done, yelled at me, said I should be ashamed, and emphasized that I deserved to be in a psych ward by the end of the night. He believes I’ve got a personality disorder, handed down from my mother’s genes. My mother fusses at me for my social ineptness, but it’s nothing I can control. I believe I have social anxiety, which is another imperfection. She hates how I have next to no friends, how my life is spent in front of my computer screen, and those I can relate to are older boys, not girls my age. She hates how I have online friends that I care deeply for, but almost no one I really trust in person. Perhaps I’m damaged goods. Such is viewed as bad by the average person, yes?

To accompany the unacceptance I’ve received from my parents, I’ve recently lost a lot of friends. I’m apathetic, I lack empathy, I’m inconsiderate, I’m cruel, I lack the ability to love, I’m selfish, I’m judgmental, I hold grudges, I lie constantly, and I’m conceited. Ask any of my friends, they’ll tell you. My best friend hates me because of how I treat her. My best friend hates me because I lack the ability to love him in return. I’m indecisive. I’m worthless, I never try at anything. What I do try at are things I will always fail to accomplish. I can’t draw, I can’t play the piano, I’m useless in games, I’m not strong, I’m not particularly smart, I can’t take decent pictures, and I can’t make relationships with people. It’s hard to deal with myself sometimes when I face these things and consider I will never be good at anything, which translates to a dim future and my existence constituting of nothing but wasted space. I’m medically broken. I take hormone pills. I take other pills. On a regular day I’m taking seven. I just feel like they make me worse. I feel artificial. But I know I’d be a painful wreck without them. I hate myself for being so whiny, depressed, pessimistic, and full of complaints. I hate how I think, how I’m too weak to deal with my situation, and how I make my situation in life so dramatic. I’m pitiful.

I’m not pretty. My sense of style is atrocious. It’s a petty thing to be concerned about, but sadly it’s something I’ve strived to change but see no fruits of my labors. No matter how much make up I wear I’m still the same face. Regardless of my clothes I still have the same body. I’m tacky, my features are unattractive, and there’s nothing I can do to change me. I struggle with my weight. I’m short, so it shows more. My self-esteem doesn’t build because when I ask for food, I get, “you’re such a fucking pig” from my father. He tells me I’m gaining weight and that I’m becoming less strong than I used to be. I’ve dieted, I’ve refused to eat, I’ve exercised. I’ve lost weight but remained miserable.

It just seems like… there’s something in me that refuses to be happy. I can’t tap into it, I haven’t been able to change it. To restate my point, Anon, I’m not perfect. I wish I were more like you. You should never wish to be more like me.

My answer:

Thank you, kind Anon. That really means a lot to me, especially considering that I’ve been having a rough time lately. I honestly wish I could be more like you, you’re incredibly kind and thoughtful… I think there should be more people like you in this world.

kackington:

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Studio Ghibli gifs: Hayao’s Moving Castle

“Look at that. They call this a castle?”

CRIES EVERYWHERE

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His face when 

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